The Book of the Divine Mother VII

I am, we are, servants of the Divine Mother.
 We should feel every day the joy to be useful to her service. It is not a new religion, it is a way of being. One day the religion of the Mother will guide and save the world.

The Divine Mother had a special plan for me since my birth, She kept me under her watchful gaze and my life has been blessed with Her Presence several times, this started at an early age, when I was totally under her control and power.

I know such visits have a dramatic healing power on the human nature, a transformational power which is the sign of her superhuman touch, when you have experienced that touch several times in your life -necessarily- she becomes your highest goal, nothing else seems relevant, you want to see her again, you long for her coming as she were the beloved one which is far from you.  You definitively surrender to her.  It do not means She would answer all my requests to see her, I cannot always reach the intensity of the call which compels her immediate answer,  but sometimes she would surprise me with her unrequested  presence.

She and me knew I was not made to conduct the life of a saint in religious seclusion, moreover I was a rebel and could not bear any kind of authority, though I had always a kind disposition to help. I basically was a sinner, always  ready to transgress any possible rule, but I had nowadays some good point so she gave me for lost and accepted me as I was. Now that I think of it, just as a human mother would.

Our relation started in a previous life, when this soul discovered that the intensity of the call compels always her answer.
 At that time this soul lived secluded in a French monastery.
 In that seclusion, in penitence and by means of an unswerving ardent  call, he was able to provoke the answer of his spiritual mother. When you  tell her as he did, that if she doesn´t come you will persist in your call till death occurs, it is a serious matter, you are making a big noise in the sky and forcing an answer. 
And so she finally did, establishing since then a more personal relation with such an obstinate and importune subject.      

There too, the requests of the personality were smashed under the yoke of an iron Rule annihilating the self in a rigid routine of silence, study, work and prayer. The physical body and its numberless requests severely submitted. 
But a christian monk would steadily stand any physical penance in remembrance of the physical penalties of the Master.
 Pain, physical pain was a way of life, a methodology of action in order to unchain inner reactions which lead to  levels of communion with the Master.

 But because spiritual  growth has to be an integration of all the instruments the Divine Mother provide us to joyfully know and serve her,  rather than an escape from them and a misuse of their functions, in this present time I was back to learn more and make peace with the physical body and the personality.

Call, to call the Divine Mother always compels an answer, it only depends on the intensity of our call if the answer is a silent, indirect one, or even her very Presence in all her glory.
This I experienced many time and I know it´s like that, lukewarm calls or kind of well if you exist come here and show yourself so I can worship you, are improper with our lady, and are likely  to remain unheard. Sometimes her answer has been so timely as much my call  storming. In a sense, she likes to be taken by assault, the rush, the impetus of the call are necessary to conquer the heart of such a silent and yet
close and attentive lover.

My defects have never meant anything to her eyes, otherwise she would have never come,
after all, as Mother of Compassion, is not the perfect man she comes to rescue, but the broken and fallen, toiling one. It is for this last one that her heart bleeds and longs for. So I was in my full right to call for her.