THE GURU, II

The community of the Masters, the holy Sangha, is a fellowship of service, to a man they are like brothers,  in a family you listen the opinion of your different brothers not only one of them, if you are sick in your bed,  you are glad to have any of them to comfort you, they will all be concerned about your health, similarly, in the spiritual life there is no need to listen to a Master while ignoring the other. 

The concept of Masterhood should grow into Brotherhood. because, as Sri Aurobindo said: All true Gurus are the same, the one Guru, because all are the one Divine.

Our devotion should be to the Truth they represent, not to a single character, the sum of the truth they represent and reveal is the sum of the different aspects of God, and for us an opportunity to grow into a wider synthesis of the divine truth which has been spoken in the course of the human march on earth. 

There is no need of devotion to only a Master or only one God, and the degree of devotion to the one truth should be supported by service, The purpose of the Masters is service to the human kind, similarly, we should be supportive to human kind in consonance with the purpose of the Masters, in an extended brotherhood of humans and Masters.

The concept of devotion to one Master or one God is primitive and should evolve into a synthetic devotion to the One Truth, to the Sangha of the Masters, and to the fellowship of the human beings, 
It is not for any political or social reason but because the human beings need to widen their vision of God.
The Kalki avatar, the avatar of synthesis comes to teach exactly this, a synthesis of devotion, a synthesis of Masters, a synthesis of teaching, a synthesis of life itself.

Because all truth has to grow into a wider truth, one has to see in the eyes of his master those of the One Master, and his devotion directed to the Master of all. This is the highest degree of devotion. 

PAGES FROM AN AUTOBIOGRAPHY II

At dawn I left the small temple in search of water,  I found the pond was not too far from the temple, I took off the clothes and submerged  myself in the water. 

Something unexpected happened: I felt as I was drawning into a space less soup of  brilliant atoms rather than water, when I got out I felt as millions of ants were circling over my body directing towards my head, suddenly my consciousness was fired up and I found it had settled in a point without dimensions at about half meter over my physical head. A single point of endless purity. 

At the same moment a deep ecstasy took hold of my whole being,  circular waves of joy sprang forth from my heart melting in the surrounding, as answering to it, from every point  around me circular waves of joy reached my heart as  waves of a sea hitting the shores of an island, when each wave reached the heart, the ecstasy renewed itself incessantly.

It was not my first ecstasy, but this time I could move while all the previous ones  required a complete stillness in asana and the interruption of the breathing function.

In that condition I tried to dress up again and walk back to the temple, it was a bit funny because the body seemed weightless, as it almost floated on the path way back to the refreshing shadows of the temple.

I sat in asana against the stone wall, never an ecstasy had lasted so much, I had not any control of it, I just surrendered to the rapture of Joy.

My mind was still and thoughtless, it was impossible to formulate a single thought, there was only a formidable, unmovable silence.

The physical vision too had somehow stepped over my head, from there I could see the physical body below, my vision changed to a range of 360 degrees, a circular vision which allowed me to see whatever was around me and at my back.

The temple was filled with an eternal Presence, time and eternity overlapped  and a mute ecstasy was the only seemingly activity of life within and without.

When I realized it, it was already sunset, the day had gone as in a few seconds, I was still unmoving in the same position than when I sat, had had no water or food but I didn´t need whatever.

The Master said it was the Purusha when, after a considerable effort to formulate words, a being at the centre of my heart, talking to that eternal Presence said: 

Why just me ?

It remembered children and old men searching for food in the rubbish, lives severed by the plague, a miserable life which had no solution, I was young and rich and healthy, and a deep joy was now the essence of my existence, but I found it ethically unacceptable, it would have been better that such miserable lives could be blessed by that joy at least as a compensation for their misery.

The being at the centre of my heart said again:

 I cannot accept this. I want to get down to earth from here, I renounce to this, at my death it can come back if so it has to be, but while I live, I will spend the rest of my life  trying to remove such misery.

Somehow I "knew" that if so I wished, so far I surrendered to that Joy I could remain in  that bliss forever,  but right there and then a choice had been made  which would affect the rest of my life. There was no turning back from that decision.

It took hours for my consciousness to be removed from that higher seat.

Awake by the pond, in the stillness of the night, the words of Sri Aurobindo came back to my memory: It is not for us we do this yoga but for the earth, this is the Yoga of the Earth.

Oh Master, how true now sound your words! I´ve been searching for a personal realization only to discover it is not enough and never will. It is not me who has to change but the whole world with me, otherwise it has no purpose!

It seamed to me almost an escape, I could live in that bliss, but that bliss in no way was going to change the misery around me, to a man of action as I was that Joy was circumstantial and almost  purposeless for such aim. 

My consciousness was finally back at its previous seat, and I knew the life of a sadhu I had been living for the last six months had reach an abrupt end. 
Without regretting anything I took my bag and went away loosing myself in the night.

MEETING SRI AUROBINDO III

I was sleeping when suddenly became aware of the change. 

While the physical body was still sleeping I became a perceptive, clear consciousness watching the pleasant vision of Sri Aurobindo conducing a chariot, a simple one, without any decoration. I was at his side and could see the vision from either positions: as a third observer or from the chariot, at his side.

The Master was wearing a simple dothi and had black hairs, didn´t spoke a single word occupied as he was to drive the chariot in that peculiar landscape.

It was a beautiful green entourage with hills and a white road circling around them, but the road had not been completely built and presented some interruption, which obliged the horse to jump and fly to reach the next built length of road.

 I just enjoyed the presence and skill of the Master, my eyes attracted by the white  horse ready to answer to the slightest command of the driver,  it was quite a beautiful horse, full of energy, responsive and in sympathetic connection with his driver. 

We had to jump in three of four occasions because of the lack of continuity of the road, then at a bent we suddenly faced a wall made of luminous atoms wandering in a whitish fog, I was surprised  but the horse prepared for a last jump ending  with a collision with the wall, trespassing it and... I suddenly was fully awake in my body and in my bed.

I understood the landscape, road and hills were myself, an incomplete topography of the self, the different parts at some point disconnected from each other, there was a road  among them but incomplete, though the leading presence of the Master made possible to save the obstacles, establishing bridges among regions and connecting all the points.

  Because of the presence of the Master, much as the early Christians said and Middle-Age monks proved to be true of Jesus, Sri Aurobindo can become a living and leading presence within, the love and study of him can take to an unexpected side of his teaching, the personal tutoring, when he is not anymore general words from a book but a personalized teaching.

MEETING SRI AUROBINDO II

It is a large town-square, a busy place with people crossing it from any direction. Everybody seems busy in their own business, they pretend to cross in a hurry so to get in time to their compromises, and yet, it all seems a parody, I have the exact feeling they lack of something, perhaps a deeper life, as they all seem to live only on the surface of things, somehow I found that what they are looking for and their  priorities are basically untrue. As they were living only on the surface of things. I´m the only one which stands unmoving, the rest of the people seems to not even enjoy the warm sun and the fair morning. Suddenly a side of the square is cleared and I observe another man standing unmoving just in front of me. He is Sri Aurobindo, he just stares at me without uttering a single word, his deep eyes seems to have the power to penetrate deep within me, as looking directly to my soul. He wears a simple dothi and sandals, even in that silence I understand unspoken words, I did not feel united to the pretenses of the people walking by, I stand alone on my own, but he, the Master, knows the aim of my life, nothing is important anymore but a sincere -even when troubled- quest for the Spirit. I feel pleased to found appreciation at his eyes, human beings may not know what my aspirations are, but the Master does, he is evidently following my development. All of a sudden as it started, the beloved Master disappear  and I found myself awake in bed. This series of meetings all happened in a short period of time, they all refers as "Meeting Sri Aurobindo" and the number in roman indicates their place in the sequence of meetings.

LOVER OF THE DIVINE MOTHER

She is responsive, caring, close to her lover, even when she seems not to be there, she is,  she is only playing to be distant, she wants to feel your passionate longing for her, she is so great to hold that you need to widen your heart to contain the vision of her, while your longing widens, your passion for her grows of intensity, you become able to receive her visit.

She will conquer you so definitively, that you will have your heart divided into two halves: the world and Her. The world is her gift to enjoy, her, the personal relation she establishes with you.

Once that relation starts it never ends, once she comes to you, it means forever, she has taken you under her discipleship.

My love for her grew more passionate when I discovered she would answer, she was accessible, but my heart and mind had to burn in the call as a consuming fire, my need of her so complete and irrevocable, an hammering insistence at her door... so intense...

And which sign of her love but when she comes unannounced... as a lover which says I´ve come to stay with you a  while...

My passion for her grew so intense, so complete, that I needed her even with my own body, longing to have her within my arms,  would she come or it was a too human a longing? Oh..she just wants your love, it doesen´t matter how you love her...

With her coming she definitively polarizes your being towards her, she establishes the process which will transform you, in her divine timing you will be ready to be wholly transformed by her touch.

 I didn´t know my physical need of her had a subtler meaning, I was offering my humanity to her, my physical body at her service, if you understand me, I had to offer me to her at every level of my being, the bodily functions directed to her, to be transformed they had to be directed toward her, open to her influence...she would secretly work on that...

MIND VISION VS SOUL VISION

To the soul vision, a galaxy is not only any amount of stars gas and dust but a real being, 
a divine being of an extended life-time and a commitment far more superior than us to the unfolding of the divine plan, they take care of the galaxy as a divine father would, their physical body is a galaxy as much our a human body, the center of the galaxy is the central core of that being, a center of divine love and commitment with the evolving life within it.

The mind vision only see an amount of stars, is not integrated with the soul vision which perceives what no instrument can perceive, the implicit divinity in everything, the immanent beauty and order of the entire universe.

Sri Aurobindo´s transitional being, is just that, an intermediate position between the soul and the mind vision, a being which has lost faith in the all-knowing mind, but has not reached yet the point where this loss of faith is supported by an intercourse with the soul-knowledge. It a loss of faith which is only supported by an intuition which says human mind may after all have not all the answers and a bridge is needed to unite the two points.

But after all, that vague intuition is already a work of the soul within searching to approach the human consciousness as much mind is searching for its soul.

ATEM, LIFTING THE VEIL A WHILE

or: the adventure of a consciousness

He said:  I did something completely unexpected, unheard before, this action has  additioned to the different possible approaches we have with the inner divinity. It is too early to say which will be the result because in a sense, I myself am the result of that action and  as far as I know the process has not reached yet the end. 
I have stepped on virgin unxeplored land.

"Would you please explain exactly what you did ?  Students are convinced that after Sri Aurobindo there´s no unexplored land anymore".

"Mine is not related, or not directly related with layers of consciousness of a being, but with the possibilities of the being itself, in that, I have stepped in an ignored land. 
 Since thousand of years the yogui, the sadhu, the ashramite, undertook a sadhana having as supreme aim in their lives to finally release themselves on the hands of the inner divinity, the inner Self, but none has ever volitively refused the presence of the Self  having the Grace of knowing it.
 I rapresent a singularity in the field of self discovery, an "unheard-of-before" case, and it has to produce some result somewhere. Otherways it will only affect my own personal sphere and relation with the divinity, but having subtely met Sri Aurobindo and Satprem in several occasions since then, I have reasons to believe it may affect things other than myself.

"What exactly happened"?  "Could you be more explicit about the experience"?

" I had been sitting cross-legged from early dawn till sunset, unmoving the whole day.
 My mind absorbed in a silence into which could be impossible to harbour a single thought. At every breath the ecstasy renewed incessantly, submerging my whole being into an unending rapture of joy, my consciousness sat above my physical head, the Spirit expanded time into an eternal Now. A fathomless  Singular Presence which only could be God itself was the only reigning Identity.
 Than another identity arose within my breast and said to the divine Presence: I can wait after death to enjoy this Communion, while living, the miserable conditions of the human being makes me impossible to delight in this Joy.

It took hours to get the consciousness back from its seat above the head, at the same time the ecstasy slowly remitted till I got back into an ordinary consciousness.
Sitting by the pond under the stars I knew I had just made a choice which would affect my whole life.
Then suddenly  the words of Sri Aurobindo resounded within my mind: it is not for us that we do our sadhana but for the earth. Our, is the yoga of the earth.

Yes, divine Master!  How true your words! Now they where clear and meaningful as never before.

 Till then I had been looking for a personal freedom, but now that aim was not important anymore, my need had shifted from my personal sphere to assume imperfection on earth as my own incumbency, I had not a personal tread anymore, not a personal destiny anymore but bounded to the destiny of the earth. 

When Sri Aurobindo met that white infinity he remained there, went farther, I went the other way round. He went up, I went below.

I have created a singularity, in a sense, I have forced the divinity to answer and provide to such a singularity which has never produced before. The fact is that even when there was such refuse of fusion with the Self, nowadays I had reached it, that fact could not be ignored and had to produce some reaction. Hopefully I had ignited some ignored mechanism which could add a momentum to the adventure of the consciousness.

Years later, when I met Sri Aurobindo it remainded me of his period in jail in Alipore, while receiing the subtle visits of Vivekananda, I could enjoy his subtle presence and ear for several nights his teaching about the characteristics of "this consciousness", he never used any other term to describe it, not supermental, overmental or whatever, he always referred to it as "this consciousness".

You know that during one of this visits he showed me the Vision of Savitri and the future earth, which is here reported, and this, in answer to his requirement, so I can´t really say how my life is tied to His work, but there lay the evidence of a connection.

Having seen Satprem twice too, both in his subtle body, leads me to believe there is a reciprocal connection, but I am the less aware of my condition because as I said I´m exploring a singularity.

It is difficult to convey the whole of the implications of my circumstance, in part I´ve been doing it while writing in this blog, but much of what is happening is so subtle that I can hardly describe it. For instance, some of my experiences recall the ones Satprem describes, as reaching the bottom of a well with the sensation it was not possible to go farther, I found myself twice in such a well, I remember quite well the sensation, as it was not possible to dig deeper than that rocky bottom.

Another experience similar to Satprem is the one he describes in    http://flammedalterite.wordpress.com/notebooks-of-an-apocalypse/  :

  something happened... There was a slow-slow immobility in the whole body, an extraordinarily dense and powerful immobility,...and that something was totally unknown and new, without any human equivalent −.... as if one was going into something else but without moving! 

 With little difference I could describe the experience with his very words. 
In the time-line I´m much closer to Satprem than to Sri Aurobindo himself, what the Master discovered was later developed and in the course of time, perspectives and even experiences slightly differed, there where new developments, I could continue farther but I will stop here for today.

I will post next some more information, and describe some of the visits of the Master.

SRI SRI SRI ARAVINDA NAMAHA

Oh, yes, they have read the books, they can make smart distinctions between Masters, as they were entitled to judge, they can make you a perfect diagram with all the levels of the being, they sit meditating but do not found peace, and they don´t found peace because they are at war with themselves and the rest of the world.

Communion, they don´t know what it means, they talk of the Mother, but they have never trembled in all their fibers for Her Presence, have never enjoyied Her closeness and care, never fall on their knees overwelmed by Her Greatness and Migthy, nor had their hearts filled with a subtle joy which is the result of her sweet closeness....in that joy they would embrace the world and every single being in their embrace, would feel the love of a caring mother for her creatures, would sanctify life because life is holy, would consider himself the last of Her servers.
They do not want Her to work freely on their mind and their heart, at most, they mentally made a request, expressed a wish, but are not willing to submit to the transformation She proposes, they say they do, because they don´t have means to know what is a real submission, they uses the same words, but these are empty of feeling, submission becomes a mathematical formula with all the other terms on use. Just mental operations, which never gives the same result.

Not to speculate but to realize what was written, that was the aim of that books, their primordial aim.
Then, while realizing, you would understand there are no lines of separation in a human being but a pulsating unity varying its focus all the time, not by pen and words you can undertake that task.
Dig hard with the shovel of your sincerity, indeed, is the only tool you have.

The question is not to have clear the levels the Master mentioned, the question is to have Him within as a living presence,  your soul shaped by his touch, high-raised by the perception of his silent presence... a speechless love and adoration of the soul too deep to describe...surrendering to him till seats on the seat of the soul.

I´m not carrying you words, I´m the witness of his operations and work on my soul, on my whole being, he has taken the lead, he conduces me, somewhere I produce resistance, but he colonized already the greater part of my human territory. It is important you to understand you can have him within you as a living presence, it is part of his teaching, he has come to be you, to seize you completely for his work.

In a sense, I´m a precursor. I´m a living proof that he can willingly come and accept your being for his work, that is the meaning, one of the lectures of the Vision of Savitri, you do not need to believe in me, but in your own possibilities, you have to conquire him, he surely will come at the due time. I hardly can describe you the swetness of knowing he has taken care of the work, with his charriot he made bridges on separed lands and discontinuos road, intimately, he is at work forever.
We have hardly imagined His Greatness,,,